sometimes the problem with loving too much
is that in the process of wanting to be good enough,
comes those uncomfortable feelings
of unworthiness, disappointment, and
the inability to match reality to what
i know in my mind i need to do.
i spend countless hours in this
lifetime nurturing it
and combating the sorts of fear i hardly
encounter unless im at it.
this craft has always
tortured me this way,
but there's no way i can quit it.
10:14 PM